Showing posts with label self-improvement program. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-improvement program. Show all posts

2010 Resolution (FLASHBACK)

I just discovered that I made my new year's resolution on 31st December 2009, after browsing randomly around in my old posts. Click here to see the post

1. Be a better person. Physically, emotionally, spiritually, and even behaviour-wise.
Physically: I lost a lot of weight. And people are complimenting me on my legs, which is weird. I've been healthy most of the time in Australia (though I'm having a spell of the common cold right now). So this is a huge 'tick'.

Emotionally: A LOT of improvement. Never felt better. I'm back to indifference, which in my case is a very good thing.

Spiritually: Never felt closer to God as I am right now :)

Behaviour-wise: Mostly okay, but sometimes I get stuck into those unpleasant ruts and do unwanted things out of habit. Need to work on this, but I've been moderate this year.

2. Please let me get a scholarship. I don't care how or what, just that I get it.
God works in mysterious ways. I didn't get a scholarship, but a loan is still good enough. :)

3. I wish my parents good health and money.
This is a bit hard to judge, but I'm assuming that they are doing fine (albeit a bit weary from all the workload).

4. I want to play FFXIII right now (cepatlah 9 March). Oh, and I want more information on FFversusXIII already. I've been waiting since last year. No, scratch that -- TWO years ago.
 This is a bit of an annoyance to me. FF VERSUS XIII IS STILL NOT OUT YET! GRR. And I'm not interested in FFXIII. The franchise is not as awesome as in the Nintendo and PSone era :(



Well to sum it up, I guess my new year's resolution was very practical this time, and very very achievable. Maybe for next year I will do something wild, like dye my hair blue or something. Hmm.

Have trouble waking up in the morning? Blame genetics!

I know, I know... the title above sounds like it's been ripped off Reader's Digest or some medical website. But it's all true though.

All my life I've been somewhat of a.... 'not-morning' person. No matter how early I sleep, I zone out during the mornings and it takes a kick or a punch into my guts to get me up. Literally. I also experience morning grogginess, where I don't recall telling my mom at 7am that I don't want to go jogging when last night, I was enthusiastically asking her to wake me up for that very reason. Sometimes when I'm forced to wake up for something important, I'll drag my zombie ass into the shower and sit down doing nothing (min 5 min), waiting for the sleepiness to fade away.

This morning grogginess is at it's worst when I'm at home. Usually the symptoms reduce by half when I'm at university or someplace unfamiliar, but it still takes people 5 nudges to wake me up. And usually (after a few blinks) I'll fall back down onto the bed and continue my sleep.

I know some people might say that it's my lack of sleep or laziness that caused the symptoms, but in my case, sometimes when I sleep at 10pm and wake up at 9am, I am still pretty darn groggy. I always have problems waking up early enough for work/classes, and I'm always about 15 - 30 minutes late. It's a bother, really. That's why I logged on and tried to google my 'disease', with pretty surprising results.

In this world, there are two types of people: morning lark and night owl. Morning lark means that you wake up easily in the mornings, but are dead tired at night. Night owls are people like me -- alert during the night but almost impossible to wake up. Here are the biological differences between the two (reference from some guy on yahoo answers):


MELATONIN (chemical in our bodies to make us sleepy)
  • 'Lark' people: kicks in around nightfall and shuts off around dawn, making them sleepy at night and awake during the day.
  • 'Owl' people: hits right around dawn, making them groggy and slow to wake up in the morning.

BODY TEMPERATURE (when our bodies are the warmest we're the most awake)
  • Lark: body heat peaks around mid-afternoon, and decreases during the evening, making them sleepy after dark.
  • Owl: the peak hits around 8pm, making them much more alert in the evening hours.

There are other differences too, like different circadian rhythms (sleep/wake cycles), differences in REM cycle (time when you dream in your sleep), and also our current lifestyles. But to sum things up -- we are born with different sleep cycles, and it's genetics too! No wonder my brothers have trouble waking up as well (except maybe Zamir). In fact, I'm not even a chronic owl type. I probably fall in the middle, with the scales tipping more in the owl's favor.

So, which are you? Are you a morning lark, night owl, or somewhere in between?

Of Dreams and Reality

I was bored the other day and decided to look up 'lucid dreaming' on Wikipedia, because I am a general knowledge-geek and have nothing better to do than read weird articles on the internet.

Back in high school, my mom would order books from Reader's Digest and one of them happened to be 'Making The Most of Your Brain' or something like that. One of the articles that caught my attention was obviously about lucid dreaming (hell, I even used the article for my SPM english oral test) but until now I still can't achieve that lucidity in my dreams. I must suck at controlling my dreams =/


Do you know what is lucid dreaming?


LUCID DREAMING

It's a state where you are dreaming while knowing that you are dreaming.

It usually happens when the person realizes that what he is doing right then is impossible or illogical, and he grasps the fact that he is still asleep in bed.

Lucidity is not dream control. Dream control means you can control the contents of the dream, whereas lucid dreaming is just a state where you are aware that you are dreaming, but is still possible to perform certain feats, like flying. Of course, you can influence the course of events to your liking, therefore in ways you can change the settings of your dream, yourselves, or even your dream characters.

In a way, lucid dreaming is an answer for those who suffer from nightmares and reoccuring dreams, as well as therapy for stressful people.

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One of the first thoughts you'd have when you 'realize' your lucid dreaming, is:

"Am I really dreaming or not??"

Usually, this is a common occurance in 'false awakening', where you believe that you've woken up but in reality you are still trapped in the frame of your dream. Here are some reality checks to see if you're really awake:


REALITY CHECKS

- Pinch your cheeks. If it feels weird or different, you are still asleep.

- Pinch your nose. If you can still breathe without your mouth, you are still asleep.

- Look at a digital watch, remember the number, look away and then look back at the watch. In a dream, the numbers will appear randomly everytime you look away and back at it. Sometimes it will contain weird symbols or characters.

- If your reflection in the mirror is blurry, distorted or frightening, it is a dream.

- If you flip a light switch and the level of light doesn't change, it is a dream.

- Pick up a book and look inside. If the pages are blank or change at the second look, it is a dream.

- Look at your clothes. If it too large/small, out of the ordinary or not there at all, you are still dreaming.

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There are methods of achieving lucid dreams, if you're interested you can check out this site; it is a community for lucid dreamers which shares tips and experiences of their dreams.

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While we are on the topic of dreams, do you know that dreams can also be problem-solving as well?

History records a lot of famous dreams from scientists/musicians/physicists/designers that helped them invent something new or give them inspiration by interpreting their dreams.

FAMOUS DREAMS

- Paul McCartney from the Beetles woke up with a beautiful tune playing in his head, and it became the song 'Yesterday'.

- Author Mary Shelley's work 'Frankenstein' was inspired from a dream.

- Friedrich August Kekulé von Stradonitz was studying about the chemical structure of Benzene and was in a slump when he dreamt about a snake circling and biting its own tail, which led him to discover that the Benzene molecule, which unlike other known organic compounds, had a circular structure rather than a linear one.

- Elias Howe dreamt that cannibals were dancing around him with spears that have a hole at the tips. That led him to incorporate a hole into the edge of the sewing needle, thus creating the sewing machine.

- Albert Einstein's theory of relativity was inspired by a dream whereby he was going down a mountainside ever faster, watching the appearance of the stars change as he approached the speed of light.

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Dreams have always fascinated me. There are times when I can't separate dreams from reality, and even now I believe that it may have happened. Sometimes the dreams are prophetic, a small glimpse into the future. Sometimes the dream serves to remind you of something that is unconsciously bothering you.

I used to have nightmares when I was a child, but once I got into UITM I stopped having them altogether. My current dreams are boring, everyday life situations that are mostly conversations, and even if it is out-of-the-ordinary the dream is never unpleasant. Well, I guess I should be thankful for that.

How many of you guys have dreamt of 'The End of the World aka Kiamat?'

I know I have. Mine was a world of a dying sun, the surroundings tinted a reddish colour, with chaos and destruction everywhere.

The World of Charn from Narnia?

C'mon, 'fess up.

Got this from an e-mail from my aunt

WATER

#1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated. (Likely applies to half the world population)

#2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak that it is mistaken for hunger.

#3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as 3%.

#4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of Washington study.

#5. Lack of water, the #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.

#6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.

#7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on the computer screen or on a printed page.

#8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast cancer by 79%., and one is 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer. Are you drinking the amount of water you should drink every day?


COKE

#1. In many states the highway patrol carries two gallons of Coke in the trunk to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.

#2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of Coke and it will be gone in two days.

#3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and let the 'real thing' sit for one hour, then flush clean. The citric acid in Coke removes stains from vitreous China .

#4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers: Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of Reynolds Wrap aluminum foil dipped in Coca-Cola.

#5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coca-Cola over the terminals to bubble away the corrosion.

#6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Apply a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.

#7. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake. Thirty minutes before ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix with the Coke for a sumptuous brown gravy.

#8... To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of Coke into the load of greasy clothes, add detergent, and run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will help loosen grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your windshield.


FOR YOUR INFORMATION:

#1. the active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. It will dissolve a nail in about four days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase of osteoporosis.

#2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup! (the concentrate) the commercial trucks must use a hazardous Material place cards reserved for highly corrosive materials.

#3. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean engines of the trucks for about 20 years!





Now the question is, would you like a glass of water?

Or Coke?

Personality Disorders in me

I've always wondered about my own sanity. Hahaha. What is sanity anyways? I think it's something relative -- let's say, everyone in this world is insane. And you are the only 'sane' person in the world. That makes YOU different from everyone else and therefore; YOU are the insane one, not them.

I think that everyone has some degree of mental unstability in them, it's just that the extremes get diagnosed. I also believe that mental unstability can fluctuate in the course of time -- I took these tests four times already -- once in 2004, another in the last year, then six months ago, and recently now. I realized that although some results stayed the same (Schizoid and Narcissistic), the others change everytime I take the quiz.


Personality Disorder Test Results:

Paranoid 34%
Schizoid 54%
Schizotypal 54%
Antisocial 18%
Borderline 30%
Histrionic 38%
Narcissistic 50%
Avoidant 58%
Dependent 34%
Obsessive-Compulsive 42%

(http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html)

Another quick personality disorder test in a different website:

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

(http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv)

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There are some similarities between both quizzes, I noticed.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

This is pretty much true. I like hanging out with people, but have a certain limit each day. I call it the 'social quota'. Once I run out of the 'quota', I tend to disengage myself from others. But within the quota, I am as sociable as anyone can be.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

I guess this is true when it comes to friendships with guys. I tend to escape when they start to be extra-friendly with me, even though what they really mean is to be just friends. I also don't like people touching/hugging me, whether it be my mom, dad, girlfriends...

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

I AM narcissistic. No doubt about it. I like materialistic things, I check out myself whenever I pass by anything that has a reflection, I like to be complimented, I talk a lot about myself... the only thing that isn't true is that I'm demanding. I'm definitely not.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

Pretty much true. I organized all 2000+ songs in my laptop's music folder into different genres and artists, I arrange my clothes according to colour and type, I'm a perfectionist... but I can be sloppy at times.

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Okay, sanity check completed. Now, I guess I have to check my lazy personality, since everyone else is busy doing Design for tommorow and I'm wasting time away writing these kind of things.

Nathan Skin & Laser Centre

My face had a bad breakout recently, so I had to swallow my pride and meekly visit my skin doctor at Wisma PKNS yesterday.

Hehehe. After the visit, I was given a piece of paper to remind me of things I couldn't put on my face:

NORMAL DAILY FACE SKIN CARE:

1. Use only lipstick, eye shadow and eye pencil.
2. Johnson & Johnson Baby powder to face.
3. Others as prescribed by me only.
4. NOTHING ELSE AND NO FACIAL.
5. Avoid sun.

FOR FUNCTIONS:

1. Makeup can but:
- Should be lightly applied
- Should be oil free base e.g Clinique

2. Remove the makeup after the function with your usual makeup remover and then use Cetaphil cleanser as the last step to wash your face.



The funniest part was when the nurse told me never to go to facials for the rest of my life. I dunno, I find that so hilarious.

An update

I'm online at the studio! =P

A summary of the last few days/week:

Datin Fatin




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Me and Syima's pond design for a house in Kiara View. We didn't present to the client yet, but we passed it onto Syima's uncle first.

After this, we have to do some landscaping/interior design work a bit. Have to hunt out for suitable plants!

Shah Alam is pretty okay. It's only 20 minutes from my house, through Sprint highway and Federal. I'm bringing my car only for this week, and when the car sticker thing has been implemented, I'll have to walk je la.

Can exercise a bit =P

Speaking of exercise, a bunch of us went to try out those weird gym things at the back of our dorm (damn... dormitory life again) just now. We were super excited like monkeys, hayun sini la, lompat sana la.... and then we noticed that Sara Anis was actually taking our pictures from the balcony! Dem. I bet you it's gonna go into the montage after this....

I'm feeling quite fired up today. A new semester always gets me inspired to study hard. I don't like to compete and I'm sincerely happy when someone gets good results, but obviously it inspires me to buck up my own studies so that I can get results like them. Is that called competitive?? Haha. I hope not. Jealousy and dengki kills ambition faster than anything.

New resolutions for this sem:

1. Stay at the studio longer. Since there's wireless here, so that'll be pretty easy. And don't clutter up the space! I'm mostly tidy, but I get lazy/messy when nearing submissions.

2. Organize my notes neatly!

3. Try not to procrastinate and stop being such a 'follower'. If I want to go to the studio and no one wants to teman me, I should just go alone. Takyah la nak ikut2 orang sgt.

4. Be more particular/detailed about construction! Jangan nak tipu2 lagi. Okay la. Tipu2 sikit. =P

5. Jangan leka sgt with the internet!!!! Most important thing!!!!


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Since the last resolution is... quite dangerous... I should stop blogging now!

Ja ne.

How to control frizzy hair part 2

Things I'll need to do:

1. Buy that L'oreal anti-frizz serum. It's expensive... Rm36.50. I bought them before, but it takes me only two months to finish it up.

2. Buy a wide-tooth comb. Hide my brushes/fine-tooth combs.

3. Buy a deep conditioning treatment product.

4. Stop bathing hot water! And um... maybe I'll try out that homemade vinegar+lemon+water remedy.

5. Stop touching hair!

6. Rebond hair.

How to control frizzy hair

http://styles101.homestead.com/frizz.html

The Truth about frizzy hair

One misconception about frizzy hair is that frizzies only occur on curly hair. But I'm sure some of you who are looking for frizzy hair advice, know this is not always true. Frizzy hair can be straight, curly wavy or kinky. Cuticle layers on the hair shaft stand up, like a Christmas tree, causing hair to feel and look frizzy. Frizzy hair is naturally more porous than smooth hair, and it absorbs the extra moisture in the air, causing the hair shaft to over expand, cuticle layers to stand out and frizz.

Another misconception is that frizzies are caused only by over processing the hair with chemicals and heat. Yes, of coarse this is the major cause. But many women, even those with "virgin" hair, battle frizzies everyday. Whether your frizz is caused by genetics or by over processing your hair, there is hope!

The Ultimate Goal to control frizzy hair

First, the cuticle layers on a frizzy hair strand look just like a Christmas tree. The layers need to be smoothed into a rolled up Christmas tree, as I like to put it. So your first goal is to SMOOTH THE CUTICLE.

Second, since the cuticle layers are opened, this exposes the inner hair shaft to damage and loss of moisture. Your second goal is too CONDITION AND REPLACE VALUABLE NUTRIENTS.

- Look for smoothing balms. Even if it says "smooth straight hair", all this means is that the product is made to lay the cuticle smooth. It doesn't mean it's going to actually straighten your entire head. So these work great even for the curliest of heads.
- Avoid alcohol if possible. Alcohol will dry out hair.
- Use protein based conditioners. Protein conditioners are not every detangling and you will need an additional conditioner if your hair tangles.
- Add a dab of moisturizer to your hair styling products.
- Moisture-rich products will fill up the cuticle. This blocks access water (humidity) from seeping in and causing hair to swell.
- Never rub hair with a towel. This will aggravate the cuticle and cause it to stand up.

Here's some tips dealing with frizzy hair

- Try not to blow dry hair all the way,
- When blow drying, angle dryer in a downward motion toward the ends of hair
- Deep conditioning every other week or once a week
- Rinse hair with cool water to seal the hair cuticles
- Use a diffuser attachment when blow drying hair
- Frequent shampooing can dry hair out and encourage the frizz
- Use products to control the frizz
- Use silicone based products such as 'Frizz Ease'. Use sparingly.
- Avoid using products with alcohol. They can dry your hair